ohmg

i jsut went on my scooter.... that was beautiufl bro It died really fast but its cuz i didnt charge it enough

it lasted on 3 bars for like 15 minutes which is surprising since it usually dies in 5 and then it lasted on 2 for 10 minutes maybe....... i got to listen to entire songs this time Woah guys! i cant wait until its actaully fully charged cuz then i can actually go on it for way longer

also apparently the back tire is flat as HELL so tahts scary but wahtever i think ive been driving it like that for awhile Maybe.... or it couldve went flat after i rode it in november but i dotn even CARE cuz it still works

at least a new tire is only 14 dollars (in all) 

SCOOTER!!!! SCOOOTER

IG OT A NEW BATTERY AND IT ARRIVED TODAYAND AND AND JALYNN IS GONNA FIX IT FOR ME TOMORROW IM SO FREAKING EXCITED dude i havent been on that thing in actual MONTHS SINCE LIKE NOVEMBER AND AND AND ITS GETTIGN NICE OUTSIDE AGAIN AND I CAN LISTEN TO MGMT WITH MY NEW HEADPHOENS WITH A NEW SCOOTER BATTERY WITHOUT FREEZING MY ASS OFF OHMGGGG GGJGOIFJGFDJGIOFDJGODFUHGUIFHDGIHDFGIUHDFG

bro and i dont have to pick lik 3 songs to listen to cuz i can go on it for an HOUR. I CAN USE THAT THING FOR AN HOUUURRRRRRRR YEAHAHAHAHA

room

m,y mom walked into my room earlier telling me she wanted to go to ikea like next month cuz of her tax return wahtever the fuck Like im excited but heres the PROBLEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she randomly pointed out that my room is soooo cluttered and that we're probably gonna have an inspection soon and i need to fix this

and then she started like picking pieces of furniture to take out of my room to replace with a dresser Like dude what thefuck this isnt your room get the hell out GO CLEAN YOUR ROOM OHMGGG ALL THOSE BEER CANS EVERYWHERE HOLY SHITTTT AND THEN THAT NASTY MESS THATS BEEN ACCUMULATING UNDER HER BED FOR LIKE 5 YEARS

buit it pisses me off cuz i can literally still walk around my room and i LIKE my room being 'cluttered'..... it makes me like really anxious when theres nothing in here idk

also shes bothered by the old desk i put in here to put my tv on & shes acting like it takes up SO MUCH SPACE when it literally takes up the same amount of space that my drawers & mini fridge took up a few months ago..... also the desk being there gives me more room to put stuff cuz it has drawers in it etc etc

god forbid i have stuff in my room oh my godi also just heard another beer can open im actually gonna throw something at her 👎👎👎 she gotta GO 


also she never even comes in here like ever she NEVER checks on me WAHTEVER BRO SHE NEEEVER WALKS IN HERE WHY DOES SHE EVEN CARE

and the maintenance guy + my evil ass landlord that gets mad when theres shoes on the floor and if the oven is still warm during an inspection Literally have never gotten upset at my room like ever NEVER in the ten years ive lived here (besides this one time they snuck in here while i was home alone whcih is illegal btw)

my mom is so afraid of someone calling us hoarders dude its literally her worst fear atp shes always stressing about it LIKE BRO OHMGGGG NOBODY IS GONNA FUCKING SAY THAT AND WHO EVEN COMES HERE 😭😭😭😭 nobody besides my dad, my friend, the maintenance guy, and the landlord come here why is she so afraid


ohmg also my room has been a mess since november like shit has been all overf my floor since then and i finally got around to cleaning it (most of the way like ic an finally walk around) and now shes mad about THIS LIEK OHMGGGGGGG FUCK YOU LITERALLY CLEAN YORU ROOM NOOWWW

2/22

its 2/22 today and ive seen 2 different SHHHHH 2 2 2 2 2 222222 anyway 2 different people say that its twos birthday today NO TEH FUCK ITS NOOOTT THAT DOESNT EVEN AMKE SENSE

nobody said that it was ones birthday when it was 1/11... thank god but still bro Where am i

who said 2/22 was twos brithday its twosday but not their birthday get it right

anyways that would imply ones birthday is 1/11, twos is 2/22, threes is 3/33 but wait thats not a valid date because there is no 33rd day of the month ever unless you live in a different dimension or some shit

and i DO NOT WANNA HEAR well technically bfdi/tpot wahtever takes place in a different dimension.... Dude there are literal scenes in tpot where theres a calendar and guess what theres no 32nd 33rd etc etc theres NONE OF THAT SO SHHH!!! SHHHH SHHH SHSHHSHSHSHS SHHHH

yeah sure tens birthday woukd be 10/10 elevens birthday would b 11/11 oh my god 11•11•11 by mgmt anyways twelves would b 12/12 but What about thirteen. fourteen. fifteen. sixteen. and everyone else. what about pi. wait 3/14 sorry im gay and stupid

no but like tau or whatever NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and if you really had to give them all birthdays then like aside from one, two, ten, eleven, and twelve theyd all have to copy another numbers birthday if that makes sense

like threes birthday would also have to be 1/11 cuz idk.... im stupid i forgot math but it makes sense right Cuz those r both odd numbers and then fours bday would be 2/22 cuz thats even

and it would at least make a little more sense if twos birthday was like march 24th cuz thats wehn they first appeared canonically (thats bfb 16's release date) But even then it doesnt make sense cuz tahts just when bfb 16 came out

and obviously they existed before that so.... i mean liek maybe it is march 24th cuz tpot 20 takes place in freaking april 2009 And march is before april but STILL IT DOENSTOINSEGUIHFGIHDFGIUhfdgnhfdgj

i dont think any of them have a birthday #OWNED


actually i just realized i sound even more stupid cuz like three would just be 3/03 and like yeah but Why would twos birthday be 2/22. this doesnt make sense idk man like why not 2/02 if if if if okay it doesnt even matter i should go outside

therapy

im gonna keep talking about this cuz its actually so stuoid its unreal

both of my therapists have SUCKED and i do not feel like trying to find another one....... its such a pain in the ass & also i just hate having to do things every 2 weeks it makes me so stressed

i also feel like i cant even tell anything to my therapists cuz ill most likely get my mom in trouble or some bullshit and i cant even tell them about The Incident of June 23rd-24th, 2025 

the Incident wasnt even that bad its just lwk not allowed 🤔🤔 LOOKS AROUND
but it fucked me UP SO BADDDDD i couldnt sleep for a week and had nightmares for a few nights in a row and all of them had gore n shit it was rotten

im gonna make a video talking about it cuz i dont wanna type it hmmm actually wait im scared gusy AND TRUST ME ITS NOTHING HORRIVLE i just tweaked a bit on something 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 i had a little too much of smth on accident just so i could sleep because my neck was in excruciating pain


anyways my first therapist was just really strange and i cant remember a single time anything we talked about helped me.... he also kept sexualizing two liek bro why does everyone do this shit to me im NOT INTO THAT ALSO YOURE LIKE 35 WHY ARE YOU BEING FREAKY OVER A CHARACTER THAT YOUR CLIENT LIKES OHMG

i remember once he waslike So do you like two cuz of all those curves... what are you saying hust say you love kids we get it also you look like the i am become christmas remaster album cover 😭😭😭😭😭

heres photographic evidence 
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anyways then i liderly ghosted his ass cuz he was evil and then started therapy with my current therapist in liek february 2025.... and at first i waslike ohmg shes Awesome you guys but like after the 3rd meeting i started to HATE IT

cuz again why was she having me do these little sheets like it was the first day of 2nd grade again oh my goddddddddddd please actually do something to help me

she'd tell me to make playlists with liek angry music to listen to whenever i felt angry LIKE WHAT DO YOU THINK IVE BEEN DOING FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE OH MY GODDDDDDD WHY ARE YOU STATING THE OBVIOUS

then she told me recently to tkae deep breaths whenever i get anxious while im outside in the dark but bro i cant even talk when im walking cuz then ill lwk start suffocating what makes you think i can just stop IN THE DARK IN THE MIDDLE OF A SIDEWALK AT 10 PM TO TAKE DEEP BREATHS 

then she told me to start carrying a flashlight liek what r these suggestions why are you treating me like im 5 years odl i couldve came up with that myself

i also brought up my like really frequent intrusive thoughts to her and she told me to write them down and i never did BUT OH MY GOD!!!! THE NEXT SESSION SHE FORGOT WE WERE GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT. WHY ARE YOU FORGETTING THIS MUCH AS A THERAPIST

that remijnds me actually my first therapist always fucking forgot everything thats another reason why he sucked ass he actually needs to die so bad i know he stinks

also i was like super late to one of my current therapists meetings and she was being all passive aggressive about it and thats what made me realize wait i dont like this 😂😂😂😂😂😂 idgaf youre not allowed to be like that towards me 

also my stupid psychiatrist with eyes that could literally saw you in half she was so scary what the fuck Anyways she kept saying oh well what youre dealing with is probably anxiety :/// boy why is everyhting anxiety with these people cuz yeah my hands feeling dry 24/7 is anxiety yeah me actually being on the verge of tears because of the dry feeling is definitely anxiety its gotta be thats the ONLY LOGICAL THING

i hate how i told her all this shit i did a bunch of quizzes and she said oh its anxiety BUT ONCE SHE TALKED TO MY PARNETS (my dad and jalynn) SHE SAID I PROBABLY HAVE AUTISM. WHAT IS THIS. WHERE ARE THSEE THINGS COMING FROM OH MY GODDDDD like YES i agree i probably do but why did it take you that much to think that

also she randomly became mean at the end like as a joke Yk when people make those jokes and theyre obviously jokes but theyre also really mean and make you uncomfortable. thats what she was doing i felt really uncomfy afterwards

next time i see that scary woman im telling her about my two wall taht i lwk took down cuz i wanted to put shelves on that wall and then i found out i couldnt because its next to a power box and if i put any screws into the wall id probably get electrocuted and start a fire

anwyays im also gonna tell her about my 9k images of two and everything else ever

WAIT THIS REMIND SME. she asked if i ever take breaks from my interests implying that my interests are unhealthy and a problem liek what the fuck i didnt even tell you that much why r you being evil now

i said yes because idk how someone could do the same shit every single day without wanting to do something else every once in awhile... i do listen to mgmt almost every day and i lidrly have been obsessed with two since august 2023 But i still do other shit obviously what the fucfk

idk everyone pisses me off... also jalynn told my psychiatrist that i cant sleep cuz im always anxious liek who fuckking told you that genuinely where did you get this information from i never told you that

i cant sleep because i cant sleep and also i cant stop thinking about everyhting and its usually not anxiety either IM JUST T HINKING ABOUT LIKE MUSIC OR SOMETHING I HATE YOU

also once jalynn kept telling me i can sleep i just dont try :/// BOY I HAVNET BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP SINCE I WAS 5 WHAT THE FUUUCCK i hate when i tell people my issues and then theyre like Well did you try this... YES BRO WHAT THEFUCK DO YOU THINK IVE BEEN DOINGGGGG

my dad complains about how long i take in the showe rbut i have this routine i have to do or else ill genuinely tweak the entire day and hes like Well have you tried being faster. you should be faster in the shower. guys why do you think i take so fucking long in there do you think im just being a lazy chud No i have to sit there for a specific amount of time and let myself dry off in a specific way or else ill feel disgusting all day

ANWYAY back to the sleep thing... jalynn told me to wear earplugs cuz im sensitive to noise when im sleeping but if i do that ill feel the earplugs the entire night and one of them wont be in my ear all the way and one will be in there too much and itll kill me AND THEN ILL ALSO HEAR MY HEARTBEAT WHICH MAKES ME INSANELY ANXIOUD

then she told me to just not look at a screen befor ebed Guess what ive tried before. not looking at a screen but guess what it doesnt do shit cuz i cANT SLEEP I CANT SLEEP I CANT SLEEP

then i todl her i literally need background noise when i sleep i need a fan on and shes like um no you dont :/// okay how come you can have noise but i cant what thefuck fuck you

also when i tweaked out that one time i told her i had nightmares n shit and she was like 'well i have nightmares all the time' SHUT UP MARTIN okay well my dog died :/// THATS WHAT YOU SOUND LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP OHMGGGGGG YOURE ACTING LIKE MY MOM

no she was also acting like that was smth to be proud of.... what thefuck are we doing genuinely Seriously like seriously dude what are we seriously seriously doing seriously

i hate how much i swear especially when im mad cuz i just seem liek im in hazbin hotel but idk i canf stop  Let me out

nap

i took the fattest nap ever of all time and it was beautiful but also do you ever take a nap or just sleep and then wake up randomly feeling insanely anxious & like you missed something when you obviously didnt

why do i feel like im supposed to be doing something today i feel like im forgetting smth... its lidetly sadurdaayyyy fundayyy i hvae nothing to be doing right now

maybe uts cuz my friend is in town right now and i feel bad for liek lwk not wanting to hang out so they have to rot at their moms work until probably 12 am

spkleaing of that i actually cant ever hang out with people like multiple times a week it genuinely kills my soul but i feel SO BAD cuz most the people i hang out with have nobody else to hang out with.......... looks around

and then when i have energy adn wanna talk and do stuff nobody gives a SHIT and nobody replies or anyhthing its so stupid kust shoot me 

HMMM also im going to my friends city on wednesday i think but i hate planning ahead like that cuz dude idk if i wanna hang out with them on wednesday idk how im gonna feel yet

also i left my therapist on read like a week ago cuz i got too scared to reply... i havent done therapy since like december bro 👎👎 Somehow im happier . what does this mean.

no but dude why do all my therapists suck liek my first one was LOWKEY lwk lwk lwk a pedophile lwk though lwk I Hateyou Jonathan Virgen. i KNOW you like Kids Little Dark Age 

and now my current one is just  idk shes cool and not a PEDOPHILLEEEE but she also kinda sucks cuz she doesnt actually help with anything... she just states the obvious & tells me to make a list of things to do when im anxious or whatever Like bro i have a mental list already what the fuck are we saying

and she gives me these fuckass sheets like im in 2nd grade again can we be serious for a minute like i genuinely need help and im just getting bullshit

also it pisses me off how literally ever since i was like 4 years old my parents have been telling me to manage my anger like i can do taht myself without help and i still cant do it because all my therapists are gay and stupid and cant do their job correctly

also i do faggot telehealth or whatever so i cant fuckign hear my therapist CUZ HER MIC SUCKS ASSSSSSSS OH MY GODDDDD AND SHE USES HER OWN WEBSITE TO DO MEETINGS. LITERALLY WORST IDEA EVER

bro and my psychiatrist appointments r like nonexistent i had ONEEEEE on december 8th and thats IT

i got medication im too afraid to use cuz what if im allergic and i fucking die And if that doesnt happen what if i become some zombie thing im really scared of becoming a shell of myself

i got likt 2 different antidepressants & one of them is to just help me sleep but again what if i literally just suffocate and die in my sleep AND THE FACT THAT I THINK THIS IS GONNA HAPPEN IS ANTOEHR REASON WHY I NEED BETTER THERAPY AND MORE FUCKIGN PSYCHIATRIST APPOINTMENTS DAWG

im actually so so so sick of not having a diagnosis im literally diagnosed with nothing. im not even joking i have 0 things diagnosed not even any physical shit
i almost got diagnsoed with asthma 4 years ago but guess what that went nowhere 

but oh my god it would be AMAZING to be diagnosed becuase it would help me with so much bullshit that i wouldnt get help with otherwise..... like mt evil school that genuinely needs to get beaten DUDE THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO DO ALL THSI SHIT FOR ME CUZ I STRUGGLE TO DO MY WORK AND THEY NEVER FUCKING DID IT

the way im typign right now reminds me of this really awful meltdown i had On discord. ON DISCORD..... but it was in a server with just me but ohmg why was i like that i was overreacting over the dumbest shit ever 😭😭😭 dude and i added the bold text & everyhting like youre just trying too hard atp

snow

it snowed liek a few days ago and i hate it i hate snow sO FUCKING MUCH I HATE TI I HOPE IT DIIEESS IDGAF I DO NOOTT CARE

i think like 3 years ago i was so upset by the snow that i spent an hour boiling multiple gallons of water and pouring it out my window I REALLY HATE SNOW

im literlaly praying that it rains OHMG SIBERIAN BREAKS SMELLIGN FOR BLOOD PRAYING FOR RAIN RUNNING AWAY ISNT ROUGH BYT ITS NOT ENOUIUIGGHH

NO BUT OH MY GOD can the snow DIE NOOWWWW I GENUINELY DESPISE IT SO BADLY

everyone i knwo loooooves snow they all d ride it like theres no tomorrow Like what the fuck is so great about it man im freezign im shivering its dry as hell outside and it looks like someone pooped everywhere but its white for some resaon

also everything becomes colorless and ugly when theres snow AND its overly bright and my eyes get sizzled if i even glance outside

my least favorite kinda day is when its insanely sunny and theres still snow everywhre AND its dirty like bro just send me to hell what the fuck is this 😭😭😭😭😭😭

me and my dad hate snow though... Also its really hard to drive in too lieik why would anyone love snow i dont understand it

snow is only good when youre inside your warm cozy awesome house at night looking out the window with music playing or smth thats TEH ONLY TIME I LIKE IT!!!! 


anwyay back to the 'it looks like someone pooped everywhre' thing cuz i finally found out why snow upsets me so bad aside from everyhting i just talked abiut..... its cuz like im used to it looking decently clean outside and then it all gets ruined and its really annoying to me idk i just really do not like it

especially when the snow starts turning into like sludge or just really gross dirty ice with pieces of dead grass in it oh ym GOD i HATE ITTT

its liderlyt the equivalent to someone coming to uour house and then like taking everything out of your closet & drawers and throwing ti everyhwere and leaving without cleaning up

HMMMM

what if i do liek a monthly lore drop what if i do this guys who am i talking to what if i do it What if #CRAZY #YYOUCATNTAKEMEANYYWWHHERE #CARKCHAERD i cant type i feel like im dyinmg

actualyl i wanna make a new strawpage first Starts thinking

but i also wanna make a neocities so my freaking rants arent insanely hard to read and liek archive n shit i hate this DIIIIEEEEEEEEEE

also evan keeps falling alseep to siberian breaks what spell does taht song keep casting on him bro 😭😭😭😭 hes gotta stop sleeping as the goer

siberian breaks

dude im actually tearing up got goosebumps over part 5 i literlaly love mgmt so much im dying 

congratulations

every time i listen to it i notice taht on apple music the album cover is like Not the conventional size so it just looks annoying oh my GODDDDD

it would be so cool if i could put a link to an image of it but i cant beucase the world wants me dead